Wednesday, March 17, 2021
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Friday, March 5, 2021
Escape Hatches 3: The Doors That Lead Back To Prison
No matter how attractive they may seem, or how much fake light may shine on the escape doors offered by The World, The Flesh and The Devil: Each door chosen will soon reveal you were just led deeper into the prison of darkness.
Each time you choose to try that door just one more time, instead of resting, waiting, worshiping and yielding to The Lord, you add to the links of chains that keep you bound. You know in your heart that reaching for that handle will only lead to disappointment and shame, but over and over you yield to the false, perverted form of hope those cell doors offer. Somehow you believe , in the corridors of your consciousness that this time, will be the time that the escape door doesn't lead you deeper into bondage.
The Lord doesn't offer a door of escape that is made to look attractive and inviting to the flesh and the eye. The door He provided is stained in His own Blood and is covered in the pieces of his flesh that the whip tore off and the nails penetrated. He doesn't want to just offer you an escape from the cell you are in, He wants you to rise up in Him and walk out in The Grace and Power of His Spirit.
If we dont learn once and for all that The Lord doesn't work the way The World , The Flesh and The Devil work, we will always be open, in one form or another, to be seduced by those fancy, attractive, alluring and excited doors. Doors that only lead back into the prison cells of darkness.
He wants us so in touch with His Spirit and so repelled by anything that is not of His Spirit, that no matter what we see around us, or feel in us, our enemies will be setting thier traps in vain. No matter how much they play to our weaknesses and fleshly desires, we will not even look to the right or left, but continue to abide in The Lord , even as He perpetually abides in us.
It breaks my heart to see men of God , that I respect and honor, reaching for those those doors. They dont even realize how deep into the dungeon they trapped themselves until thier enemies pull back the veil to reveal thier sin and brokenness to the whole world. Leaving many mocking, many confused and even more hurt , wondering;
"If this mighty man of God with such a depth of scripture and wisdom in him fell, what hope is there for me?"
Somehow, someway, they allowed themselves to simply reach for an escape from thier appointed place. They looked around and heard something, saw something or felt something that whispered to them, "Did God truly say to avoid that, to stay humble, to be holy just as I am holy?"
They allowed that question to linger as those doors of escape became more and more alluring, and more and more attractive. Until they got to a point where they saw something that was once profane and untouchable to them, as something they desired and needed more than The Lord. They gradually handed the ownership of thier mind and body to the flesh and the devil. They began to open door after door after door , until they were so deep into the prisons of darkness, they themselves were deceived. Though they were bound in chains, they professed they were free. Though privately they served The World, The Flesh and The Devil, publicly they continued the show.
This subject touches me in a deep and profound way, because recently I found myself back in the prison I once was free from. I found myself bound in chains I thought would never touch my "skin" again. I found myself reaching for those dammed doors over and over again, even though I know they only lead to pain and regret.
The Good News is that Jesus is still setting the captives free. He never stops calling out, because His Blood is on The Mercy Seat and perpetually cleansing those who are called by His Name. His Grace is Greater, His Love is Deeper and His Glory is Brighter than any prison of man or The Kingdom Of Darkness.
But, we have to be honest with ourselves, our loved ones and with those we can give account to. When we fall, when we begin to reach or have already walked through the doors of temptation and sin, we must recognize it, repent, confess and rise up again.
The only prison The Devil can keep us in as believers, is the one we give him the keys to. He has no ability to stop us from standing up and walking out, right into the arms and light of Jesus Our Lord.
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Friday, October 16, 2020
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Monday, May 11, 2020
The Last Days- Prophecy- Prayer - Providence- Purpose
My spirit man is groaning like a wanderer in a dry and weary land!
I long and thirst to see His Glory, expressed on earth, through His Outstretched Hand!
My heart strains under the burden of the bound and broken!
Crying out for a release of His Power and Love, like when demons fled from just a WORD being Spoken!
Bogged down by the empty words of the babbling lips!
I sail toward His Light, like a tossed and turned ship!
Lord HEAR the Prayers spoken by every shout, sigh and groan!
I shall seek you, unwavered , until The Answer is Released from Your Throne!
Monday, April 20, 2020
Testimony - Praying-Crying-Preparing In The Darkenss
I want to share with you a testimony about a period of time in my life that I call The Dark Years. I pray The Holy Spirit speaks to you, not only to help you, but to help you help others. I am sharing a small portion of my story that goes back to when I was a toddler. The roots of some of what I am sharing were planted then.
From about 1997 - 2000 I was in a very intense place. I was operating in a very strong spiritual place, but at the same time I was living a white knuckle, highly intense false freedom from some long standing oppression. It was as if I was in a drug like focus that I thought was the anointing and freedom, but learned it was something else completely.
A lot transpired during this time and there were many pressures from a lost job, to health issues with my wife, to some other very personal issues I will not mention here. No matter what I went through my thinking was, I am not acting out in the sin I once did, so I am okay. I was on edge, my temper was on a hair trigger, I was in pain almost all the time, but hey I was about to graduate Discipleship Training, and I am not stopping.
I can not effectively describe the level of intensity of the stress and anxiety I entered into around the year 2000. I took a job that I was not built for as an armed guard and couldn't handle the stress of it. I was getting very little sleep. My system was constantly on edge. I was running on adrenaline 24/7 and that cant last .
The stress and anxiety were so bad that I had almost constant pains in my ribs and kidney area. I cried bitterly often. I had little control of my emotions, anger began to express itself regularly.
One night I gave in to the old sin and from there I began to slide. I want you to understand that I wept at the alter many times. I cried out for help many times. I sat in church month after month, year after year in so much internal stress and physical pain I lost hope.
One night , I walked to The Alter, knelt down, and told The Lord:
"I am sorry, I cant do this anymore."
As I walked away form the Alter. Pastor Bob Carter stopped me and said "Randy you are a good man". I smiled as to say, sorry it is too late. Shortly after that I entered The Dark years that lasted from 2000-2006.
It was during this time that I began drinking again, smoking again and engaging again in the sins that I found comfort in since I was very young. I was also working 3rd shift and was basically sleep deprived for the better part of a decade, but that is a longer story. The depth of the darkness I fell into in my soul caused me to feel such shame.
I hid the pain well. I wasn't acting out in blow ups as much toward those I loved the most, but my addiction to sin grew deeper and deeper. It not only met, but surpassed the sin I came out of when I began attending church around 1993. I was heading toward an abyss that, but for The Grace of God I would not have escaped from.
One night after engaging in the sin I was oppressed and addicted to, I felt as if I was on the edge of Gods Grace. I began to cry out to God.
"Please Lord don't let me die in this. Please Lord I want to be free. Protect me until I can find my way out".
This I believe was a cry in the darkness because I realized I was beginning to lose sight of the light. I felt in my soul that the way back was closing, the light was dimming, hope of restoration was dying. This prayer was repeated countless time over the next few years. Then things began to turn. I began to see a way back again. This is the main point of this article.
To begin to stand up and move toward the light, even as darkness is trying to hold you in its evil grip.
I will say around 2003-2004 , The Lord began to draw me out of the darkness. I began to pray in the spirit more, I began to listen to sermons more. I was still drinking, still sinning, still acting out, but something had changed. It was as if Gods Grace came in a new way in my life. I began to see the path even though I was not actively following it. I was still bitter, I still didn't want to go back to church, I still had a lot of shame, but I did begin to to sense the leading of The Lord.
I fought it a bit. I was hurting in many ways. However then The Lord turned it up some more in interesting ways.
A spirit filled believer began working Night Audit in the hotel I was working. I felt the Holy Spirit in her and upon her. She didn't try and convince me to return, she didn't preach to me, but I could here her at times praying in The Spirit regularly.
Then another person was hired on that was a daughter of a new minister at The Church I left and God was drawing me back to. I found myself in a position to defend her and The Church I was avoiding going back to. That stirred in me a even more intense desire to pray in The Spirit.
Around November of 2005 . A spirit of prayer fell upon me and rose up within me. More on that in a moment, that will bring us to the end of this article.
Before I get into that let me point out that this was a 6 year period. There were many things that happened in life during this period I cant share here. I am not sharing specifics on purpose, not because I am ashamed of my story, but because I don't want that to become your focus.
I prayed thousands, probably tens of thousands of prayers from 1993-2006 from very dark, hard oppressed places. I focus on this six year period because the night I cried out to God not to let me die in this place, something broke. Nothing changed naturally. However from that night on I began to move toward the dimming light.
No matter how dark a place you may be in, there is hope. No matter how many times you have fallen you must get up again. No matter what the sin is you have fallen into or the shame you feel, you can rise up, be washed by His Blood and stand before Him unashamed.
Now to bring this to an end.
November 2005 something exploded in me. It was like The Holy Spirit grabbed me and put me in a place of intense prayer. Honestly it was so intense I didn't like it at times. I feared falling back into the white knuckle life like I shared earlier. But that didn't happen. I began to pray fervently all night at work. I marched in snow storms praying and crying. I walked miles and miles every night walking the property at work.
I was still drinking, but quit smoking. My drinking become more controlled and I began to slowly pull away form the sins that easily beset me, but was still engaging. From November 2005 to February of 2006 I lost 50+ pounds from walking and praying.
In February 2006 we took a cruise and although I was drinking a lot of beer on the cruise, I was stirred in The Spirit. As I walked the Islands the gifts in me stirred. As we approached Dominica I could see in the spirit a haze of poverty over it. I prayed under my breath as we toured the island. Before we got on the ship I was overcome and I knelt down ,placed my hand on the ground and claimed it for Christ.
When I stood up, I knew I had done something that was off. I felt something hit my stomach. When we returned from the trip. I began to have some symptoms that lasted for about a year, but peaked in about 6 months. That will have to be another article about authority and jurisdiction.
Late March-Early April 2006:
I was sitting on my couch on a Friday night. I was probably about to open a beer and like a loud speaker in my soul I heard:
" GO BACK NOW"
I thought to myself ummm nope. However, it was a call that arrested me, it was as if my spirit man was being built the whole time and God had brought me to a place, unknown to me, that when He said "GO BACK NOW", I would.
I got up, got dressed and went to church. What followed was divine appointment after divine appointment. A long period of purging and cleansing. Years of intense prayer and learning. Supernatural moves of God in my body and soul. It was both intensely powerful and honestly intensely painful at times, as the root of all the darkness was exposed and dealt with. A process that is still going today.
I look back now and see all the prayers I prayed while still in darkness were preparing me for the moment God said "GO BACK NOW" . All the cries, all the letters I wrote, all the intercession I found myself engaging in even as I was far from the church and people I was praying for, all of it was to prepare me for that day. All of it was preparing me for this day.
My hearts cry for you is to pray no matter what. Seek His face no matter what.
To end I will repeat what I said above and add this. The time to believe fully is now. You don't have to wait to get so far from the light that you begin to lose sight of it.
GO FOR IT NOW!
BELIEVE NOW!
GO BACK NOW!
TITHE NOW!
LOVE NOW!
PRAY FOR THAT PERSON NOW!
SEND THAT LETTER NOW!
CALL THAT PERSON NOW!
PREACH THAT MESSAGE NOW!
HELP THAT PERSON NOW!
BELIEVE NOW!
START SERVING NOW!
No matter how dark a place you may be in, there is hope. No matter how many times you have fallen you must get up again. No matter what the sin you have fallen into or the shame you feel, you can rise up, be washed by His Blood and stand before Him unashamed.
GIVE IT EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW!
Thursday, April 16, 2020
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Tuesday, November 26, 2019
Personal Post
I stood in a large meeting room today. It was set up board room style with 30 or so chairs around it. In my spirit I saw a ministry team sitting around the table debriefing from a powerful time of ministry. It was a peaceful site to me. I felt at rest. Before my eyes was the team I had prayed for over many years. A team not unlike the teams that Jesus sent out who took authority over demons and unclean spirits, that healed the sick, raised the dead, moved in the power and LOVE OF CHRIST.
Jesus promised He would be with us in life and in ministry. He gave us a great commission and He promised to confirm our words (when they were His words) with accompanying signs and wonders.
There is a price to pay to walk in the power of the age to come. Of course Jesus PAID THE PRICE, however He did say there was a price to pay to follow Him and continue His Ministry on earth. He said we would be persecuted,hated, even beaten and some martyred.
Persecution is part of the package. The enemy hates The Light we carry and will look for any all opportunities to attack that LIGHT in us. I am ready to take everything The Lord has entrusted to me into the darkness. I am ready to see the joys of the captives being set free and the lepers being healed. I am ready to face the demoniac oppressed by Legion and see him set free. I am ready to walk in the midst of the blood thirsty persecutors and pass through them under the wings of Angelic Powers. I am also ready for persecution, hatred and if called upon, martyrdom.
So to the millions our team will someday reach. The Lord hears your prayers. His eyes are upon you and His ears are open to your cry. He is ready to answer your prayers with mighty deeds that cause the righteous to rejoice and the wicked to bite their tongues and cry our in pain.
The LORD is sending His Disciples to bring The Gospel to you in Power and Demonstrations of The Spirit. He is sending His Body out to feed,heal,deliver, love and restore.
The Lords Return is near. Let All The Earth Rejoice. The King is about to descend back to earth clouded in glory. He shall come in power and glory, strength and might! He comes as a Conquering King! Rejoice and again I say Rejoice!!
Wednesday, November 13, 2019
Perceptions Of Poverty
Proverbs 22:9 King James Version (KJV)
Proverbs 22:9 King James Version (KJV)
The LORD promises us blessing if we will choose to have a bountiful eye in connection with giving our supply to the poor. This message is a message of joy. We have not even scratched the surface of the great blessings both natural and of the soul that we can obtain by understanding the joy of bringing life giving supply to those dying to receive it from us.
Luke 21:4 New Living Translation (NLT)
Proverbs 22:9 King James Version (KJV)
Luke 4:18-19 New Living Translation (NLT)
Acts 10:38 New Living Translation (NLT)
Luke 7:22 New Living Translation (NLT)
Proverbs 14:31 New King James Version (NKJV)
Proverbs 28 New Living Translation (NLT)
2 When
there is moral rot within a nation, its government topples
easily.
But wise and knowledgeable leaders
bring stability.
7 Young
people who obey the law are wise;
those
with wild friends bring shame to their parents.[a]
8 Income
from charging high interest rates
will end
up in the pocket of someone who is kind to the poor.
10 Those
who lead good people along an evil path
will
fall into their own trap,
but the honest
will inherit good things.
11 Rich
people may think they are wise,
but a poor
person with discernment can see right through them.
13 People
who conceal their sins will not prosper,
but
if they confess and turn from them, they will receive mercy.
16 A
ruler with no understanding will oppress his people,
but
one who hates corruption will have a long life.
20 The
trustworthy person will get a rich reward,
but
a person who wants quick riches will get into trouble.
24 Anyone
who steals from his father and mother
and
says, “What’s wrong with that?”
is
no better than a murderer.
27 Whoever
gives to the poor will lack nothing,
but
those who close their eyes to poverty will be cursed.
28 When
the wicked take charge, people go into hiding.
When
the wicked meet disaster, the godly flourish.
But wise and knowledgeable leaders bring stability.
those with wild friends bring shame to their parents.[a]
will end up in the pocket of someone who is kind to the poor.
will fall into their own trap,
but the honest will inherit good things.
but a poor person with discernment can see right through them.
but if they confess and turn from them, they will receive mercy.
but one who hates corruption will have a long life.
but a person who wants quick riches will get into trouble.
and says, “What’s wrong with that?”
is no better than a murderer.
but those who close their eyes to poverty will be cursed.
When the wicked meet disaster, the godly flourish.
Monday, August 19, 2019
The Attack of The Mind
Sometimes "The Wind and The Waves" can look like this. We cry out to The Lord in fear and panic , saying " Don't you care, don't you see, save me!"
I have fought this battle often. In fact I have been fighting it recently. The thoughts are different, the swarm of voices is different, but the images explain it all.
If you are in it now, or have this battle, even as a long standing , mature Christian, fear not. The Battle is The Lords. He cares, He wants us to rest in Him and use The Authority He gave us to SPEAK TO THEM and declare HIS WORD.
Mark 4:35-41 (NKJV)
Wind and Wave Obey Jesus
35 On the same day, when evening had come, He said to them, “Let us cross over to the other side.” 36 Now when they had left the multitude, they took Him along in the boat as He was. And other little boats were also with Him. 37 And a great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that it was already filling. 38 But He was in the stern, asleep on a pillow. And they awoke Him and said to Him, “Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?”
39 Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace, be still!” And the wind ceased and there was a great calm. 40 But He said to them, “Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?” 41 And they feared exceedingly, and said to one another, “Who can this be, that even the wind and the sea obey Him!”
So although we may have to battle this worlds thoughts and attacks of the enemy, we have been given the ability to respond with power, and as we see in these scriptures , with His Mind and Wisdom.
1 Corinthians 2 New Living Translation (NLT)
Paul’s Message of Wisdom
2 When I first came to you, dear brothers and sisters, I didn’t use lofty words and impressive wisdom to tell you God’s secret plan. 2 For I decided that while I was with you I would forget everything except Jesus Christ, the one who was crucified. 3 I came to you in weakness—timid and trembling. 4 And my message and my preaching were very plain. Rather than using clever and persuasive speeches, I relied only on the power of the Holy Spirit. 5 I did this so you would trust not in human wisdom but in the power of God.
6 Yet when I am among mature believers, I do speak with words of wisdom, but not the kind of wisdom that belongs to this world or to the rulers of this world, who are soon forgotten. 7 No, the wisdom we speak of is the mystery of God —his plan that was previously hidden, even though he made it for our ultimate glory before the world began. 8 But the rulers of this world have not understood it; if they had, they would not have crucified our glorious Lord. 9 That is what the Scriptures mean when they say,
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard,
and no mind has imagined
what God has prepared
for those who love him.”
10 But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets. 11 No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. 12 And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us.
13 When we tell you these things, we do not use words that come from human wisdom. Instead, we speak words given to us by the Spirit, using the Spirit’s words to explain spiritual truths. 14 But people who aren’t spiritual can’t receive these truths from God’s Spirit. It all sounds foolish to them and they can’t understand it, for only those who are spiritual can understand what the Spirit means. 15 Those who are spiritual can evaluate all things, but they themselves cannot be evaluated by others. 16 For,
“Who can know the Lord’s thoughts?
Who knows enough to teach him?”
But we understand these things, for we have the mind of Christ.
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