The Mission, Message and Mandate

A big part of the services that the company I work for provides our client is making sure there are Business Continuity Plans in place for unexpected disruptions. The over reaching structure of the plan is organized at the national level, but has to be cooperated with and implemented at the local level. If a Site Manager like myself doesn't submit requested information , or doesn't cooperate with changes in the plan, then the entire plan will fall apart.

Having this mindset allowed our client to empty offices of tens of thousands of employees, across the nation, as the pandemic emerged, with just minor interruptions of thier work flow.

With what we learned , we are now able to run once large offices filled with hundreds, and some with thousands of employees, as our clients employees operate almost fully remotely. Our client could not operate as they are required to without our services , mainly because of the Continuity and Contingency plans we have in place.

If you are a Pastor over a church, especially if you are over a series of churches, make sure you have a ministry continuity plan. If you have a non-profit, make sure you also have the plan in place.

Ministry , unlike a business or a job, is given by God . It is imperative that every Christian Ministry has a plan and mindset in place , to continue being The Church, and Gods hands extended, even if everything changes, funding dries, or normal communications are interrupted.

I see a period of time coming where all ministry, if only for a season, will return to the base of the church, the pillar and ground of the truth. Be open to that. Pastors, be open to that. Outreach founders, be open to that. Meet regularly with your contacts and fellow ministers that you do your ministry with. Coordinate with those contacts you have. Have a solid continuity plan in place so that , as much as possible, you are able to continue ministering to the people and bringing peace to thier lives.

We have a plan in place that ensures if one region goes down, all that work and forms will be diverted to another. If one office goes down, there is another office ready to pick up the work load.

In ministry have the same thing. Most importantly, have FAITH. If all modern luxuries and technologies were taken away, The Gospel is never chained. If all grants and funding go away, God is still a provider for what He call us to do. If everything that defines what you built your non-profit or church to accomplish, becomes obsolete because of travel or monetary restrictions, The Gospel must and will continue to go forward.

This next part may seem off topic, but it is not,

When we bring The Ministry back to the foundation of what Jesus was sent to reveal, create, expose and establish, we will be preaching The Gospel of The Kingdom, purely and without filter.

I think one of the failures of the modern western church is that in error we have thought that by building programs, facilities and comfortable entertainment venues, that somehow we are prolonging the very real, very destructive end of all things.

This world is passing away. The wickedness that is being performed all over this planet is getting darker, and more powerful. That is not negative statement, it is the truth. The Kingdom of darkness is very comfortable in how it kills ,steals and destroys, with very little spiritual, authoritative resistance from much of The Church World.

Isaiah 60:2

 For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth,

And deep darkness the people;

But the Lord will arise over you,

And His glory will be seen upon you.

I think part of the reason for that is Mixed Missions, Mixed Messages and Mixed or Misunderstood Mandates.

I am not , I repeat, I am not saying there is no place for non profits that do not outwardly preach The Full Gospel. Jesus went about good and healing all who were oppressed by the devil. However, we can not mistake good works, public praise or even the natural success of those we are reaching out to with Preaching The Gospel of The Kingdom.

Matthew 5:14-16

¹⁴ “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. ¹⁵ Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. ¹⁶ Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

Listen, you can create a non-profit that eradicates poverty in your city and raises up brilliant young men and women. But, if they go into the world as unsaved as they were before, you have failed, if you laid aside the preaching of the gospel of salvation.

What good does it do to give a person the whole world, great success, life tools, if they lose thier own soul? Some say we preach the Gospel without saying a word. You cant, it isn't possible.

Matthew 16:21-28

²¹ From that time Jesus began to show to His disciples that He must go to Jerusalem, and suffer many things from the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised the third day.

²² Then Peter took Him aside and began to rebuke Him, saying, “Far be it from You, Lord; this shall not happen to You!”

²³ But He turned and said to Peter, “Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men.”

²⁴ Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. ²⁵ For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. ²⁶ For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? ²⁷ For the Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father with His angels, and then He will reward each according to his works. ²⁸ Assuredly, I say to you, there are some standing here who shall not taste death till they see the Son of Man coming in His

I think The Lord had a reason to make His Message a message of Words. A Mission to Go and TELL His Story. With a Mandated Authority to do so, with a promise to confirm those WORDS. A story about a fallen relationship, and evil enemy and a liberating King. Mankind is living under the oppression of a kingdom that encompasses the globe. Demonic forces are ravaging mankind in the most horrific ways. Darkness has fallen upon the earth and deep darkness the people. I know you dont see it from your comfy couch and your 200 dollar church chair as you sing worship songs without fear of being locked in and burned alive, but that, and even worse things are happening , to your family, your brothers and sisters, who are one body with you, right now.

 John 5:19-20

¹⁹ We know that we are children of God and that the world around us is under the control of the evil one.

²⁰ And we know that the Son of God has come, and he has given us understanding so that we can know the true God. And now we live in fellowship with the true God because we live in fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ. He is the only true God, and he is eternal life.

So what does this have to do with the topic I started on? Well, it may be, and I will not say this is a prophecy, but a spiritual observance of the landscape. that our false sense that we can rely on stuff, politics, technology, systems, nicely folded plans of keeping things balanced and clean, will be shaken down to the foundations. Comfortable humans have a way of ignoring the pain and storms around them, until that pain and storm effects them. Nobody in Washington or on the east coast cared much about the dust bowl, and in ignorance didn't realize the danger that it posed to them and the entire nation, until Washington DC was hit with a dust storm. What was happening in the west, because of ignorance and misunderstood farming practices, could have ended our nation as we know it, but, not many in Washington cared, until they had to.  

If you click on the picture you will find a very interesting article that may stir you prophetic vision and how a seemingly terrible sight can be Gods Mercy

We are not like the world. The day (the time) of The Lord, The Last Days, The Time of Trouble, should not take us by surprise as if we didn't know. The very real demonic entities that will become more active soon, should not cause us to fear, hide, or try and explain away thier existence in a message that is friendly to reporters, or the world. The darkness should not be able to overtake us or cause even a shadow in the light that shines from us. We should be like the wise ones that prepared and were ready.

Acts 11:28-29

²⁸ Then one of them, named Agabus, stood up and showed by the Spirit that there was going to be a great famine throughout all the world, which also happened in the days of Claudius Caesar. ²⁹ Then the disciples, each according to his ability, determined to send relief to the brethren dwelling in Judea

If our light is dimmed, it is because we have taken The Gospel of The Kingdom and hidden it under a bowl, or within a sugar coated message, or under "our good works", or behind our secular funding that we would lose of we let The Light of Christ and The Gospel of His Kingdom shine fully. Or , and this is where many of us, myself included, have failed, we have hidden it inside our own fears of men.  

I will end here. Make a Ministry Continuity Plan in partnership with all your churches and ministry connections. Within that plan, make sure that if all else fails, you and your whole staff and church are comfortable with having The Gospel of The Kingdom being the only foundation they have to stand on.

Make sure The NAME OF JESUS holds more power and authority in thier hearts than any other name. Make sure The Great Commission is the only Mission that is allowed to stand, when all else does not.

Do not hold on to any Mission, Message or Mandate, that will cause you to replace, or lesson The Mission, Message and Mandate that was delivered to us In Gods Word. That Great Commission is the only hope for mankind, and the only Mission, Message and Mandate He is bound Himself to confirm. Most of all: Have FAITH that Jesus IS LORD over all The Earth! He has us and is not short on anything. He is faithful, able and more than willing to confirm His Plan!

Matthew 11:1-6

11 When Jesus had finished giving these instructions to his twelve disciples, he went out to teach and preach in towns throughout the region.

² John the Baptist, who was in prison, heard about all the things the Messiah was doing. So he sent his disciples to ask Jesus, ³ “Are you the Messiah we’ve been expecting, or should we keep looking for someone else?”

⁴ Jesus told them, “Go back to John and tell him what you have heard and seen— ⁵ the blind see, the lame walk, those with leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised to life, and the Good News is being preached to the poor.” ⁶ And he added, “God blesses those who do not fall away because of me.”

Mark 16:14-20

 

14 Later He appeared to the eleven as they sat at the table; and He rebuked their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they did not believe those who had seen Him after He had risen. 15 And He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. 16 He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; 18 they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.”

Christ Ascends to God’s Right Hand

19 So then, after the Lord had spoken to them, He was received up into heaven, and sat down at the right hand of God. 20 And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working with them and confirming the word through the accompanying signs. Amen.

Please Watch and Give

 

The Lord Wants To Pray With You

 

It is The End of The World (As We Know It)

 

Hello ,

 This is an open letter to you. Whomever you are, I am writing this directly to you. Not your Mother, Father, Child, Neighbor, C0-Worker or otherwise. This letter is for you. 

How are you today? I hope all is well. Did my title get your attention? How you read that title and interpret it, will depend a lot on your world view.  I don't just mean your political views, your religious views or your various views on social issues. I am talking about the lens in which you see the big picture.. How you see The World. You may not have much of a world view at all. You may have focused your lenses on just what goes on around you, or your go to news station. Maybe your world view is limited to you immediate family , friends and community. No matter how large of a lens you have CHOSEN to see through or how small and limited of a lens you have CHOSEN to see through: You do have a world view. 

There is much talk about concerning where we are in the timeline of earth these days. You may not see the chatter as having anything to do with Biblical Prophecy or even non-biblical, extra-biblical predictions from many religions, spiritualist and "see-ers" throughout history, but much of what you are seeing and hearing is not only confirming, but actually fulfilling Biblical Prophecy right before your eyes.  

I wont try and convince you that The Bible is supernatural in nature and is not just a book written by man, assembled by man and manipulated by man. I am not going to try and preach the gospel to you in this post. I just want you to consider what is happening around you, what is coming soon, and how you will react when it happens right before your eyes. Will you lay aside all the doubts and reach out in faith, or go the way of the crumbling world and harden your heart? 

 So for the sake of this letter to you, will you do me the favor of just assuming The Bible is the road map to the end of this age on earth and is God Himself speaking to mankind and showing us the Beginnings and The Endings of Modern Man and the current age on this earth.  The Bible on its surface is a tiny glimpse into what amounts to a blink of an eye into the history of this planet and universe.  It does pan out and give hints and shadows of what came before modern man, but at best we can only make an educated guess at it. The Bible does pretty well explain what will come for the millennium after the age of man on earth, and mentions eternity after that, but we do not see the whole picture, the details or what God will do in detail on earth after this age ends. 

Consider this. Even the most prosperous nations on earth can not find peace. Even places that boast of their civil, socially driven societies , have hidden violence and wicked mummering's under the surface. No matter how hard they try to mask it, cover it, sugar coat it or just plain lie about it, every single nation suffers violence and murder in one form or another.  

Let's take Iceland for example. The murder rate and crime rate in Iceland is very low. Murders do happen. Violence does occur, but is is rare. However the fallen nature of mans stony heart can not escape spilling the blood of innocence and can not help but to find a way to align with wickedness where ever a society leaves open the door.   Note the pictures below and continue reading.

(Keep reading, I will show you I am not "liberal" bashing. This is NOT that article) 

 

Do you know in Iceland these wonderful, beautiful people would not even be allowed to be born. They proudly boast of almost eliminating down syndrome. They abort almost every baby that test positive for it. That should make you sick after seeing these pictures.  If you are coming up with a reason why that is not a bad thing, you are in danger my friend of falling for the greatest deception since Hitler and the gas chambers, to come to mankind.  If you can look at these pictures and say that Iceland is a magical land of peace and harmony, and not see the gross wickedness behind this boast, my heart fears for your soul.  What you are telling these people is that they really have no right to exist, that they shouldn't have been born and that they should have been torn apart and thrown away before they were born. Ouch. 

Remember we started this letter talking about your world view. Your world view is being challenged right now, as your mind races to jive your beliefs on abortion and pro-choice, and the very real reality of what these pictures are showing. You will be forced to say to these beautiful faces one day why you thought that way about them.  How much wickedness of action and thought will you allow , so you never have to admit what your heart already knows. The policy of Iceland and the extermination of all like those pictured above is wicked, evil and comes not from God.  Oh, I know what you are thinking, they were not babies yet, just "fetuses".  Okay, I hear your pro-choice talking points burning rubber in your head. But, sorry, not here. This is not about pro-choice or pro-life. It is about what you will allow in order to guard your world view , even if you have to allow evil to do it. 

 I just read an article today that a "Christian" School covered up a wicked, unholy sexual assault on a student in a locker room. It was described by the school administration and a freshman hazing incident. They turned police away when they arrived and told them to get a warrant. A freshman boy was attacked in the locker room, beaten, turned around and violated with a baseball bat. These "Christian" school leaders to this day defend themselves and their actions saying that they had "qualified' administrators dealing with it. They were allowing a wicked act of violence and sin to stay hidden and whitewashed, in order to protect the fake image they portrayed. They allowed a false religious world view that had ZERO to do with The Love of Christ they proclaimed and everything to do with the fact they are a deceived people, who are in line with a false Christ and his anti-christ spirit.  

You can be sure The Spirit of The Lord has nothing to do with their actions. They hid evil,  in order to guard themselves. The "Church" has a long history of using Jesus as their marketing tool, all while serving a false christ in their actions and heart. 

I could list many other religions that use their beliefs as a cover to allow the greatest evils and wickedness mankind can conjure, but I will single out my own. Or more accurately those who use Christ as a marketing tool and cover while never really knowing Him. Jesus spoke of them when teaching the people. He said :

Matthew 7:21-23

21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

 My point is this, both secular and religious institutions of mankind have differing world views that are aligning more and more with the darkness of this world. Both Believers and Atheist are being swayed by what The Bible calls The Wicked One. The Spirit of Anti-Christ operating in The World. The Flesh, The World and The Devil have mankind bound to be pushed and swayed into a deception that will launch a great evil on the earth. An evil that has stayed in the darkness for Millenia and will make its final worldwide appearance very soon. 

2 Thessalonians 2:5-12

Do you not remember that when I was still with you I told you these things? 6 And now you know what is restraining, that he may be revealed in his own time. 7 For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only He who now restrains will do so until He is taken out of the way. 8 And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord will consume with the breath of His mouth and destroy with the brightness of His coming. 

9 The coming of the lawless one is according to the working of Satan, with all power, signs, and lying wonders, 10 and with all unrighteous deception among those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, that they might be saved. 11 And for this reason God will send them strong delusion, that they should believe the lie, 12 that they all may be condemned who did not believe the truth but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

So, how will your worldview effect your destiny when the things mentioned above begin to unfold on earth. They are actually rapidly unfolding right now. I could write a whole book here describing how, when, where and why, but this is not that post.  

When you are faced with he very real choice of choosing your own worldview, your own politics , your own social beliefs and dogmas or laying them all down in order to choose God over The Lawless One, what will you choose. Make no mistake, there is good and there is evil. There is a God and there is  Devil.  There is a heaven and there is a hell.  You are given a choice. 

 I am not telling you that you are going to hell. Many reading this are believers in Christ, with their eternal destiny sealed in Christ. However oh believer, have you been deceived into helping the lawless one spread his lies and deceit. Have you been hijacked in your flesh to spread a shadow of deceit over the world , so that when the world does tilt , many are swept away by the greatest evil mankind has ever seen? 

We have watched over the past few years many that claim to be led by The Holy Spirit and to be Disciples of Jesus Christ, say and do the most ungodly, foolish things. They were openly acting out in the flesh, and calling it righteous. They were showing the darkness that was always hidden in their worldview. 

 They revealed what was really in their hearts and still to this day, many, defend their fleshy, rebellious, un-Christlike actions. It is plain to anyone who can discern The Spirit of God that a great shadow has fallen upon much of the western church. The Flesh has ruled, from greed, to excess, to uncontrolled emotions, to rebellion and hatred. From uber-rich celebrity preachers flaunting their wealth in Nigeria right next to persecuted and starving Christians, to preachers in America living like celebrities or carrying guns down main street. They all have believed a lie, and are swayed by the devil, the world and the flesh. 

 Their worldview in the coming years will see them locking out their starving brethren , fighting with guns and instruments of death, starting wars between the people they are supposed to be messengers of peace to. 

 The secular progressive governments, will fair no better, and the wicked communist governments will return to genocide and the slaughter of millions of minorities and Christians that they have perfected over the years. Those with a very liberal world view will fall, like those who can still look at the pictures above and see no issue with Iceland's policy, they will become very cold , unempathetic and look like the elitist of the past. They will justify the most wicked acts of violence against all that will not bow to their worldview. They will deem anyone who will not accept their worldview as an attack on their society. They will justify eliminating the "trouble makers" . 

The tool used by the enemy as he revels himself in true form will vary by those with differing worldviews. But there are three things all mankind have in common will be what ends up united all the different worldviews into his unholy "church".  

Money, Religion(yes even Atheist) and the need for a Leader.  Right now the world is arranging in a way that will cause the nations of the world to embrace a leader that will bring the world religions and the world finances. under his cloud of deceit. He will turn the masses against anyone who will not bow to Him and His system.  The only ones that will not be deceived by Him are those who are truly filled with The Holy Spirit. Like the early believers that faced the lions instead of bowing to the pagans of the day. Like the believers who faces\d persecution and death because they would not bow to communist Mao. Like the believers now who are beheaded ,tortured and burned alive because they will not denounce Christ and profess Islam. 

It is not only Christians who will suffer , anyone who will not fall in line with his system of "world peace" will be deemed unworthy to work, shop or participate in society. You may laugh at that ,but it is happening now. China is enslaving and killing minorities in their nation. Across the western world, people are being denied jobs and income because they do not want to be injected with a vaccine that they do not trust. Right now some of you don't care if families are being destroyed because they do not believe the same way you do. You are being prepped, much like the German people were, to watch atrocities against others and look the other way.

 At the same time , so called Christian churches and organizations are advocating taking up arms, violent overthrow and civil war. Like the false Christians that spread the gospel by sword and force, they are deceived. Like the churches under Constantine they are following a false Christ and a wicked spirit. They believe more in the power of a theocracy than The Kingdom of God.  They know nothing of The Love and Power of Christ. They , like the leaders in the dark ages, believe they can legislate godliness and anyone who does not bow to their religion(not Jesus) doesn't deserve to live and operate in society. 

 I will end with this. No matter who you are. Seek The Lord. Ask God to help you see with His eyes. Ask Him to save you from the time to come.  Ask Him to keep you from the great deception. Then lay aside your worldview and listen. He will respond to all who call upon Him. He will reward those who diligently seek Him. Above all do not let your pride and stubbornness cause you to be one of the ones The Lord describes below.  Rather listen to the words of Peter 

My next post will be The Gospel of The Kingdom as The Word Supernaturally tells it and how you will know The True Church Of Jesus Christ

Romans 1:28-32

28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting;  29 being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers, 30 backbiters, haters of God, violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, 31 undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerciful; 32 who, knowing the righteous judgment of God, that those who practice such things are deserving of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who practice them.

2 Timothy 3:1-9

3 But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: 2 For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 3 unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, 4 traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, 5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away! 6 For of this sort are those who creep into households and make captives of gullible women loaded down with sins, led away by various lusts, 7 always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. 8 Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, disapproved concerning the faith; 9 but they will progress no further, for their folly will be manifest to all, as theirs also was.

Revelation 9:20-21

20 But the rest of mankind, who were not killed by these plagues, did not repent of the works of their hands, that they should not worship demons, and idols of gold, silver, brass, stone, and wood, which can neither see nor hear nor walk. 21 And they did not repent of their murders or their sorceries or their sexual immorality or their thefts.

Give Thanks In Advance | A Blessed Morning Prayer To Begin The Day

Set Your Mind On Things Above | A Blessed Morning Prayer To Begin Your Day

MORE THAN A CONQUEROR IN JESUS | A Blessed Morning Prayer To Start Your ...

The cost of godly transformation | Prophet Didier Tison | ATIL Broadcast

Gift of clarity - A now word

Catharsis Therapy To Face The Darkness

This is not for everyone . If you choose to read it. Please do so prayerfully. This post is about my experience and perspective and does not reflect on anyone else or any Church. Most important. God Is Good.  All these things will  turn with great momentum and will be used to go about doing good and setting others free, in Jesus Name. The darkness being expelled from the lives of all The Lord sends. 

It seems, for one reason or another , I have been forced to face something from my past that I had thought I had thoroughly dealt with.  The darkness keeps creeping up on me and settling upon me. Honestly I would prefer to not visit these memories. I would prefer to count the work I have already done in facing them as complete and move on. 

It is no fun to face pain. It is no fun to relive trauma and it is certainly no fun to have that trauma trip you up every time you begin to fully break free from its grip. However that is where I find myself. Once again facing a pain and a struggle I hate with all my being. 

I wont lie, this round of battles has been taxing to my faith. If there is a chief of double mindedness and unstable emotional roller coaster riders, I am He. It is as if I am surrounded by a fog, a darkness that seems to have stolen all The Lord built in me over the last 30 years. My spirit, when stirred and in the perfect environment comes alive. However that fog seems to await as soon as I begin to walk out my day. 

I guess I could describe the feeling and pressure as a severe, traumatic and devastating sense of loss and failure.  Worse yet, I know all the answers, well all the text book "christian-ese" answers. I know the WORD , I know about the power of prayer and confession. Yet here I am again. Facing something that feels like it wants to take everything I love from me, and if it cant, which it cant, it is content in isolating me in a dark fog of looping memories and thoughts. I find myself reaching in the darkness only to find the chains that hooked my soul before I had any choice in the matter. Even more wicked, this evil intruder seared into my soul the belief that it was my choice, it was my fault, and I was deserving of the pain and judgement of the darkness that surrounds me.

I am sharing this as a way to utilize a tool in mental health called Catharsis Therapy. I actually learned about this today as an actual tool to use in the effort to get to the core of these types of emotional traumas and loss.  Even as I write this I have a sense of empowerment. I will admit the image search brought me back to the place where the wicked intruder attacked my innocent vulnerable soul. 

Why was darkness allowed to steal my innocent baby and toddler years? 

I could wax spiritual here, but that isn't the point or purpose of this post. I could post one of the many poems and encouragements I have written over the years. I could show how much I understand about trauma, the body, the soul, the brain and how our spirit can be crippled by those things, but it wouldn't add to or help in this particular share. 

There are simply times in life we have to admit we just do not know. There are no easy answers. There are no theological views that bring any type of peace or closure to this for me. Not yet anyway. Why was such a dark spirit allowed to attack and innocent toddler? Why was this dark spirit allowed to return , night after night, from before my brain formed memories until I was somewhere between 6-8?

Where were the angels? Where was God? Why was Satan allowed to so scar my soul that even now at 50 years old, I can still feel the pin pierce the palm of my hand?  Even as I sit here typing this, my hand feels a little numb and my stomach feels and "hears" the sounds of terror and judgment and fear.

Why is my other earliest memory of an actual event that would scar me and literally leave a foul taste in mouth until my 30s and 40s. Why allow an innocent child to have 2 traumatic memories as his first memories? 

Throughout my childhood I remember having big outburst of anger when I felt left out or abandoned. I was a very angry kid. From kindergarten to when I was expelled , I was always fighting. I had to meet with a councilor in 5th grade for anger at school. 

There were other symptoms. I wrote a note to a girl once when I was in 5th grade that was very sexually explicit. Her mom found it and she interrupted me and the girl on the phone and straightened me out. She was very firm but also seemed to know that it wasn't normal for a 5th grader and there must have been a reason for it. Thinking back , I don't even know where those words came from, I mean they were weird.  

When I was about 9 or 10 I left much of being a kid behind. Darkness stole me preteen years. I started drinking and smoking pot regularly at 11, straight out partying when I was 12 and on to cocain and LSD when I was 15 or 16. 

 To add to my issues, there was something in my soul that shut down my system when I would try and have sex as a teen. Not that I didn't want to, but, something in me shut down everything. By the time I was 18 I seriously was deep in depression and hurt. I was acting out in other ways to try and meet the sexual needs I had, but that only brought shame to my heart. I became so addicted to one activity that even after meeting my wife it brought shame to me. I racked up bills on relatives phones and my dads phone bill.  Darkness just wouldn't let me live a normal life. As if it was steering me to become a violent, foul, broken man. 

I met the girl that would become my wife and things seemed to finally work. We were married less than a year after meeting. It seemed my life was finally going to normalize..........but no.

Then all hell broke loose in me. I had plans to attend college and become a police officer. It fell through, and as I said, it seemed all the darkness that was following me, that attached to me as a baby all came flooding upon me and in me. Not even a year into our marriage, with a new baby boy on the way, I became a man I didn't recognize, I gained over 100 ponds in about a year. I was angry, not working, had my new family on welfare and heading to being a man I did not like.  I was emotionally, spiritually and physically at the bottom of a foul pit. I threw up everyday for almost 2 years. I couldn't walk up a set of stairs without feeling sick. 

My wife is so precious, she doesn't hold any of those years against me, and really doesn't even feel the need to recall them. So for her benefit, I will not share the level at which I fell into anger. I will just say, it is not the man I was created to be and is not the man I am today. I am thankful those days did not last any longer than they did. 

Once again, what I thought was going to be a breakthrough of life. darkness stole it. 

Then one night I called my Dad and explained what was happening. He said. Rand you have to go to Church. I did, that is a longer testimony, but in a couple years, God did a miraculous work in me and our life. He saved me from  sure early end. 

I wish I could say The Lord has given me a great deliverance, and in many ways He has. However suffering and pain seems to have followed me. His grace has always been there, but, there has been so much suffering of the soul. I cant even describe it fully.  I spent years suffering with so much stress, anxiety, fear and pain, that I was physically in pain for many years.  

I sat in Church for year after year in so much physicals and emotional pain. No help came, no one heard, no one seemed to care, the weight finally crushed me.  Some year later, I returned to the house of God after going into deep darkness and sin. 

There was a leader prepared  by God to be a door for me to a team prepared by God to be a safe place for me. For many years the fires of The Spirit cleansed me, strengthened me, and drew me close to brothers and sisters in The Lord. I was on a great mountain top high with that team for many years. I needed that family. It seemed we were on a track to be a mighty ministry for our local church and a mighty fellowship of covenant saints. 

Then it seemed it was all gone. All taken away. All the dreams an visions stolen. The path destroyed, the family broken. This was my perspective. I tried to hold it together the best I could. I tried to grab the spiritual reigns and keep everyone on the same path on the same mission. It was all for nothing, I slowly, began to sink. I teamed up with a friend in the spirit to join spiritual forces to launch his ministry outreach. During a very hard time personally, I asked him to remember me when he needed to add staff. He didn't, he actually acted like I never even said that to him. Again this was my perspective. It crushed my soul. I literally felt like I got punched in the stomach. Another person abandoned me, and I felt guilty for expecting anything, for thinking I deserved to be part of a team like that. 

The last several years have been a constant battle. Most explained above. It has brought me to where I sit today as I type this. Naturally I have so much joy concerning my wife, my sons and my grand daughter. However, as I said above, I also have a great sense of loss and failure. As if the darkness has won and disqualified me from the dreams and visions I have in God and His Kingdom. 

Always a choice right? Choose laying it down and moving on. Or pressing on and holding on to hope. With a constant feeling, who am I kidding, all is gone, all have abandoned me, and because I lack the skills to build relationships and I don't have the perfect little box life, I really wont ever step into my destiny. So I just wont really choose either, but as you know that doesn't work. Not choosing Gods path always lets the darkness in to influence our path

Enter the darkness and why I feel I am facing this now. Below are picture representations of the horrific nightmare that is my earliest memory. Or my earliest memory that became a reoccurring nightmare. I believe I have fully utilize Catharsis Therapy writing this. They say pictures are a good form to stir the emotions and face them. 

Thank you for reading this far. 

I was sitting in complete darkness as a baby/toddler

I was presented with a pin cushion, with a small pin and a large pin. I had to choose. I always chose the wrong one, and anticipated I would. I reached for the pin.

The pin always pierced my palm with a numbing pain

As I pulled it out it made a loud dull sound,  a sense of fear and dread would come over me, knowing the horrific pain that would follow. The darkness was filled with anger and wrath coming down upon me. I chose wrong again and again, night after night.

Even now as an adult , when I feel like the darkness is surrounding me, I feel as if I am bound to make the wrong decision. Now though when I reach, I find nothing but chains waiting to bound me back to the darkness. 

BUT GOD!!!!!!!!

“You are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's own people, in order that you may proclaim the mighty acts of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light” (1 Peter 2:9)

Colossians 1:13-14

13 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, 14 who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins.

 

Help!!! I am bleeding internally | Prophet Didier Tison | ATIL Broadcast

A Word In Season. Freedom Is Possible

                                     

I applaud Carmen for her openess and strength to share her story of abuse, trauma and addiction. This book is precious in the eyes of God. This is a real story of redemption and restoration over time and Gods Great Grace to set us free. 

If you have suffered trauma, want to understand trauma , or are in a position where you minister or council people with childhood trauma, I believe this book will touch your heart and enable you to enter The Promise Land of Freedom. I highly suggest you order it and read it .  Just be ready to draw close to Jesus as you do.  I truly believe that this book, and the ministry God has given Carmen, were ordained by The Lord to reach those who are hiding in shame and the shadows. 

 I pray doors open wide to her and her family. We need this type of real talk and pure vulnerability. I needed it really bad in this very season of my life. Thank you Carmen for your obedience and courage.

 

Help Is Coming 3

  

Some might be wondering where Part One and Part Two are. Well they went the way of the Great Delete Button from YouTube.  That is okay, I am believe that as I type this, the same anointing that was on those messages from years ago, will be on this post. If I find them I will add a link. 

 I am writing this for a specific group of people. Actually, I am writing this for two groups of people.  The first, and main group, are those caught in an illness, depression, oppression , darkness , sin or physical-mental incapacity that you have not been able to be healed and delivered from.  You may or may not have a close relationship with The Lord Jesus, but the cry of your heart is continually asking for help. Your heart is heavy and broken from the trauma and pain of life. Whether from abuse, neglect, chronic illness and pain, you feel hopeless and hurt. It seems God doesn't care and even those you love may have lost hope that change is possible for you.  You are not alone. You are seen. To quote a friend of mine; You are not invisible. 

To you I say Help Is Coming and even nigh to you right now, as you read this. 

The second group of people are those who have carried a burden for the chronically lost, sick, broken and bound. Whether it is a burden for those who are physically chronically ill, or those who are chronically ill in thier minds and emotions. You are a Born Again , spirit filled Christian, who knows Gods will is to heal and deliver even those who are caught in deep darkness, and seemingly impossible to break chains.  You have seen an anointing and power in the spirit that has not yet been realized on earth. You have a burden on your heart to see those that will only be healed and delivered by a mighty working of miracles or a gift of special faith totally restored and set free. You groan in your heart and spirit for those so bound physically or mentally by demonic oppression that they need a demonstrative miracle be set free and restored to prefect mental and physical soundness.  You pray to The Lord with deep utterance and groanings for those you have a burden for.  Maybe lately your faith has waned because of time passed, pain endured and an unquenched empathy for the hurting and lost. 

To you I say Help Is Coming and even is nigh to you right now, as you read this.

 There is nothing you are facing, whether personally , or as an assignment as a minister, that is out of the reach of The Lords Hand. There is no sickness or oppression that is not subject to His Name and Faith in His name. There is no level of mental or physical incapacity that can not be made whole or restored by His Glory and Power. Even death itself is subject to Him and His Name. 

Jesus gave us two examples so that we could confidently face all things, in faith and assurance that He is able. The Madman of the Gadarenes and Lazareth. We can have faith that God will heal even the most broken body. Lazareth was dead for days, his body already rotting, yet Jesus looked up to Heaven, gave glory to God, Commanded Lazareth to come forth, and  Lazareth was restored to wholeness.

We can believe for the most broken body to be healed, even unto the most crippled, even unto death. 

The man with the Legion is an example of The All Powerful Authority of Jesus. 

No matter what demonic or mentally ill challenge is set before us in ministering Gods Love and Grace, we have no excuse to think for a moment that it is not possible to bring perfect soundness and deliverance to a precious one of God.  

There is no mental illness that can not be perfectly healed. There is no demonic possession that can not be driven out. There is no filth or brokenness of man, that can not be restored and made perfectly clean and whole!!!!!!

He loves and cares for you and those you have been praying for, far more than you can imagine! 

To those whose hearts right now are stirring, longing and even crying out to God saying "I so want it to be so" !  I say to you

HELP IS ON THE WAY!

To those tired from the battle and weary from the fight. I say to you

HELP IS ON THE WAY!

 For those who are thinking, "but it is thier lack of faith that is keeping them from being delivered and healed". You are not thinking along the same lines as this post is following. I will refer you back to the examples of Lazareth and The Man with The Legion. You are not flowing in the same river, or walking along the same path as this specific word. 

You are not wrong, just not rightly applying that truth, to these I am speaking to. You wouldn't tell a person so physically bound and broken that they are unable to move, understand, or operate in anyway to have a faith they can not comprehend due to incapacity. Many are bound the same way in the darkness and trauma of the soul. Thier minds and souls are literally crippled and twisted up. 

(For more on The Importance of Faith -See the link at the bottom of this post. It will open up a post I wrote from 2012.)

For those who have heard that you are to blame for your struggles because you just done have enough faith, or have sinned too much. Or those that have a burden for the cast aside ones, the feeble minded, the trauma blinded hearts and minds.  I say to you

HELP IS ON THE WAY!

God is a restorer of souls. He is a help to those in trouble. He is a refuge to those caught in the storm. He doesn't look at the bound and the traumatized with anything but love and a desire to free them fully. He isn't looking for reasons not to deliver His Creation. He is always looking for those whom He can show His Glory and Love to. The Ministry of Jesus was never supposed to subside and weaken, but was transferred in all its Power and Authority to The Church who He gave a Commission to and promised to FULLY back  with His Power, Authority and Glory. 

When Jesus was abut to leave the Earth He told His Disciples:

John 14:12-18

The Answered Prayer

12 “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. 13 And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you ask anything in My name, I will do it.

Jesus Promises Another Helper

15 “If you love Me, keep My commandments. 16 And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. 18 I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.

In Other Words: HELP IS ON THE WAY!!!

I want to encourage you to set your heart toward Jesus. Look to Him. Call upon His Name. He is still the same. He has not weakened or changed His Plan to build a Church that The Gates of Hell have no hope of standing against. His answer today would be the same as it was when Johns Disciples asked Him if He was The One or should they look for another, and until we can respond in the same way, He is still working to get His Word to prosper in His Church and Ministers.  Let these word burn the determination in your heart that The Lord wants you whole. 

Luke 7:11-23

New King James Version

11 Now it happened, the day after, that He went into a city called Nain; and many of His disciples went with Him, and a large crowd. 12 And when He came near the gate of the city, behold, a dead man was being carried out, the only son of his mother; and she was a widow. And a large crowd from the city was with her. 13 When the Lord saw her, He had compassion on her and said to her, “Do not weep.” 14 Then He came and touched the open coffin, and those who carried him stood still. And He said, “Young man, I say to you, arise.” 15 So he who was dead sat up and began to speak. And He presented him to his mother.

16 Then fear came upon all, and they glorified God, saying, “A great prophet has risen up among us”; and, “God has visited His people.” 17 And this report about Him went throughout all Judea and all the surrounding region.

John the Baptist Sends Messengers to Jesus

18 Then the disciples of John reported to him concerning all these things. 19 And John, calling two of his disciples to him, sent them to Jesus, saying, “Are You the Coming One, or do we look for another?”

20 When the men had come to Him, they said, “John the Baptist has sent us to You, saying, ‘Are You the Coming One, or do we look for another?’ ” 21 And that very hour He cured many of infirmities, afflictions, and evil spirits; and to many blind He gave sight.

22 Jesus answered and said to them, “Go and tell John the things you have seen and heard: that the blind see, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, the poor have the gospel preached to them. 23 And blessed is he who is not offended because of Me.”

Click here for a post from 2012 on the importance of Faith. 

The Power of the Blood | Andrew Murray | Free Christian Audiobook

The Promise for Your Healing Nov 10, 2021 • Pastor John Carter

 

Dilemma and Deliverance - Charles Spurgeon Sermon